There are 2 ways to approach life:
One is as if life is out to get you and it’s something you have to survive.
The other is that you were put on this earth for something more. That your trials are meant to strengthen you as a human being and that joy can be found in the everyday if you train yourself to see it.
I was at that roadblock at one point in my life. Desperately stuck seeking answers, I had a decision to make.
I could continue to be a grump about everything that was going on in my life, give up, quit, sleep away the days, be bitter and angry, and self-pitying.
Or I could choose to live in the freedom of gratitude, love, joy and peace despite whatever circumstances were in front of me.
For awhile I chose the former, today I choose the latter.
While I may not be successful in conquering each and every day, my vision, my goal, my choice—is to live life with intention.
MY BATTLE WITH LYME
In 2014, I got pregnant with my second child. Everything went well, but after her birth, I developed my own health issues. I experienced migrating pain and twitches that doctors couldn’t figure out. As the years went on, my list of symptoms increased. Eventually I had trouble holding a conversation, and was in so much pain that I couldn’t walk to the bathroom on my own. Every test was normal, and doctors began to question my sanity.
After two and a half years, I was diagnosed with Late Stage Lyme Disease (aka Chronic Lyme), which presented another set of problems. I learned that the disease is highly controversial, and navigated an underground world of Lyme treatment. Nothing was covered by insurance and communicating with doctors was often difficult and secretive.
My journey with Lyme tested my faith in ways I never dreamed and I had days where I wished I could sleep away years of my life until this was over. If I had ever lived in survival mode, it was now. While I am much improved, I still deal with chronic pain on a daily basis and regularly visit doctors for treatments in hopes that one day I will be healed.
HOPE IN THE HELPLESSNESS
I’m not sure what the protocol is to finally end this disease, but I do know one thing for certain. My hope in Jesus is ultimately what has brought me to the other side of this ugly time in my life. When doctors treat you as if you’re crazy and your family has exhausted every option they know, you tend to feel desperate, hopeless and full of fear.
It was in this hard time that I learned the peace that comes with surrender of control and trust in Jesus, one hard step at a time. Each day is still a battle, but I have the reminders of how far I’ve come and the hope he set in my heart to keep living life—not merely survive it.
WHY WRITE A BLOG?
After a year and a half of treatments, I began to see major improvements. But the turning point for me was when I addressed my mental state and acknowledged that I would never make progress if I didn’t believe I could.
While my mindset wasn’t the cause of Lyme, it certainly wasn’t helping it. I read book after book of others who went through hard times and read of their successes through self-care practices like using a gratitude journal, or getting outside into the sunshine everyday. I saw a pattern of positive thinking and physical healing in my body that I couldn’t ignore.
So I’m writing this blog to remind you that survival mode is not the way to live–hope and joy are found in intentional living!
You are not alone. You are not a lost cause. Your circumstance doesn’t define you. You are braver and stronger than you think. Let’s take back our lives together by stop waiting for things to get better. Today is the first day of your new life—stop putting it on hold.
You’ve got this!
WHERE TO NEXT?
If you’re a fellow Lymie like myself, you might be searching for a few of my Lyme-related posts:
For the rest of you, my site has so many fun things for you to explore for more intentional living! Where will you start?
1. PERSONAL DEVELOPMENT
2. FAMILY LIFE
Thanks for stopping by, friend! Here’s to intentional living!
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